First of all.. sorry for all the typos on my first post.

Now, today's walk was a quickie. After all of yesterdays excitement one would imagine I woke up totally pumped up to walk, but the truth is, I had to force myself to do it. However, I wasn't let down either. Again, I didn't have my camera because I forgot to charge it the night before, tomorrow I will simply take my phone and get pics with that for now..

Even tho it was overcast, windy and cold outside I still walked. After about 3 minutes.. and a farther from my house, I took in the cold wind on my face.. the smell of rain in the air and forged on. I paid less attn to the scenery and tuned into my thoughts. 

  I've been increasingly unmotivated to do ANYTHING in the last 3 or 4 months. I feel a little crazy because of it. My motto has been , "always find the joy", but it gets harder and harder each day. I guess it takes practice and respect and thoughtfulness and this all leads back to being unmotivated to do ANYTHING. It's a crazy merry-go-round.

  I suppose the fault isn't entirely my own, but I'm hesitant to use the word fault, or blame, or any word that transfers responsibility to someone or something else.

But if I did, I'd say it was the economy, my relationship with my husband, the lack of a job, or any number of things. I know there can be extenuating circumstances, but my reaction and how I deal with life is my choice, my call. So why aren't I dealing with it??

 So since I sat down to write this post, my son has text me, needs an umbrella, so I had to find that. The dogs want in and out to pee. Fed ex has just delivered golf balls. And then I had to pee. I'm thoroughly aggravated that I can't seem to be able to do ANYTHING from start to finish without stopping to do a million other little things.

This is the son who constantly calls me for everything he always forgets..BUT he is my retirement plan.. LOL so go figure~ maaaan!! I love this kid~~

and his fed ex delivered golf balls~

and these are the three amigos who endlessly need to pee, poop or wander around outside. I love them! the Yorky is Abby, the lil brown dog is my Shih Tzu, Teddybear, the white maltese is Lilybelle. 

 Anyway, I have to find ways to get my *motor vated*! So for now I am going to paint a huge square in my closet in which to use as a frame to hang necklaces so I might actually remember I have them and start wearing them. I will post pics when I am finished!

LUVZ~

Until tomorrow..